in the end

The stupidist mistake in life is thinking the one that hurt you most wont do it again...
I can cry all the tears I want but It won't help me face reality. I have so much to give, So much love to offer. Why do I get thrown away? Why do the people I love most abandon me?
I try so hard to help, so hard to give everything.
Here I'am left in silence for what feels to be the millionth time. When are people going to stop hurting me? Can they not see that I'm already broken?
Each piece of my heart that breaks feels like horrors one could only dream.
I know they aren't worth my suffering. But how do I not suffer when they were the ones I shared everything with?
Every smile, Every thought, Every tear. I put my faith in them. I gave them all I could.
They were my best friends, The ones I could tell anything to. The ones I could trust.
And were am I now? I'm alone, the arms of the ones that used to hold me turn into the dark mist of the past. I'm holding myself now. Holding what little pieces of my heart I can keep inside my chest.
In the end I'm the forgotten one.
In the end I'm left facing the world in solitude.
After every blood and sweat I put into their lives to try and make it better.
When Is it my turn? When do I get somebody to stand beside me? Why must I sacrifice so much, and only end up with agony in return?
It's so hard to go on like this. So hard to breathe.
I'm haunted by memories.
They were my best friends.
And now my only best friend is me.