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I know I'm a blog slacker :( sorry don't really have much time to do anything.
Wow, don't really even know what to type because there has been so much going on.
well i guess I'll start with the biggest thing.
I'm engaged,
now before you judge I know what your thinking.
Eighteen? isn't she to young.
I don't think age defines love at all.
He is my best friend.
I have been dating him for the past two years, best friends for longer,
He knows me inside and out, up and down, there isn't anyone I can even begin to see spending the rest of my life with. He has held my hand through the most hardest part of my life, And was the birthfather to Avery when she didn't have one.
GARRETT is amazing, :) I'm so honored that he chose me to share his life with. I'm very excited and ecstatic to be his wife.
It's a long engagement,
We are getting married next July, Not this July lol.. next July
I'm happy with my man :)
yay so that's the biggest thing right now! and my little girl will be TWO!! in like two months! oh my goodness! i can't believe how big that princess is. :D I miss her, and hope to see her soon.

Life right now is crazy,
I can't believe I'm even having the time right now to write. I don't even have time to breathe anymore. I'm struggling with graduating....
I can't even express how alone I feel right now. I could scream in a room and nobody would even care to look up at me...
I'm depressed....
Well it's a long story.
I'm not living at home right now, I'm living with a friend. And as the holidays apporach it seems like I can't do anythng but cry. I feel lonley,
YES I do have my Garrett.
But I miss my family, and i wish situations would be better, But most of all I miss Avery,
there is so much sorrow filled in my heart right now. Everything feels so unreal. :"(
It's been almost six months since I've seen my lovely birthbaby. And I'm hurting. She is getting so big, and I'm missing so much.
I'm Eighteen in a few weeks, Funny I don't really like it almost is,
Right now I'm just trying to find myself... Discover Celeste again...
The girl who got good grades and was going somewhere in life..
right now I'll hold on to the faith I have
Happy Turkey Day
-Celeste

YAY!

Sorry my blog was disabled but i was able to finally restore it! so ill write more :)

Season of change.

So the snow is fading, and the darkness is passing,
the grass is greening, the birds are begining to take flight again. And the winter is almost dead, bringing color and life into the world again.
but why does my heart stay in the dark? why is it still lost in the blizzard of snow? why are my tears still frozen and falling.....?
alot has been going on my life, and nothing or nowhere to go is forward. I try to stay strong, and i do the best i can. but sometimes it's just not enough. sometimes I feel like my wound will forever be open.

im alive really iam.. :)

So i'm a complete blog slacker, i mean i keep starting posts but i never really finish it. :/
so what has been going on? im fianlly pulling myslef out of depression, i still cry on and off but im geting there. It's almost the end of the third term. so its been crazy with homework,
ill post more when i can! :)

Hello Depression...

So life has been crazy, it has not been at all easy for me. I have been so stressed. and so much is going on right now. Almost every day i end up in the office crying. Its just a hudge mixture of things. Like stress of school. Family stuff. My broken heart has been weighing me down alot lately. And with all the stress at home I hold it all inside, and now i just talk to this blog. My boyfriend is a great person for support, but im so tired of overwhelimg everybody I love my emotions. It's just a hard month, and i hope ill get out of this soon.

The darkness of winter

The snow is falling, and each snow fall reminds me of all my frozen tears. the ones I hide behind me. The ones I cry alone in the darkness of the brisk cold air. My life is changing, but every day I move forward with pieces of my shatterd heart. Every movement slowly creeping behind me, The silent echo of the past shadows behind my soild mask of pretend happiness.
So dark, and so cold, I continue through the snowstorm of insanity. Each step as a cry for help. But nobody hears me over the loud wind overiding my call for the hands of the earth to left me up. I fear forever I shall be lost in the depth of my sorrow, Always lost in the darkness of winter.