tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-73518225228399781592024-02-18T23:35:46.878-08:00The Beauty of DisasterOne mistake, Created one life.
One life became the hope and love of many,
This mistake became the most wonderful miracle.
What started out as a disaster ended up the most beautiful angel.
It started a family, It saved my life.
It brought my precious Aviendha into this world.
She is the most amazing miracle.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-43096783307007163662013-05-20T18:28:00.001-07:002013-05-20T18:28:31.555-07:00Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-36020762259826054982013-02-04T11:33:00.000-08:002013-02-04T11:33:58.230-08:00Healing of a broken heartIt has been way to long, for some reason I just can't seem to keep up on here.
There is just some words I need to get out some feelings I have kept to myself.
This last December, I had missed my period. I didn't think anything of it.
Well you see I'm on birth contorl. and that happens.
But just in case I decided to take a pregnancy test, I got a faint positive....
One week later I miscarried.
I'm DEVASTAED :"(
I know I may not be ready, but it still is so hard. That would have been a child I could have for myself.
Well I continued to bleed heavily and was in so much pain so I went into the hospital.
they informed me that i had an Infection in my reporductive organs. I could have lost my fertility.
All I want is to be a mother. I don't understand why this happening.
I know God has a plan for me, and honsetly that is what keeps me going, Faith. And the love of my heavenly father.
I'm trying my best to be content. But i find myself on my knees crying most nights.
I also recieved a blessing of comfort. that indeed has comforted me.
Some of you might be thinking why didn't I hear about this?
Because I needed to come to accept it first. The only ones who knew was Garrett, my mother and I.
It hurts so bad, but i know I will meet that lost baby someday.
Just to know what I have always wanted was at my finger tips. was in my tummy :"(
A beautiful life I made with my husband. And I don't know If I ever will be able to concive again.
I can just only hope and pray.
But please please God, I have done your work, I placed my birthdaughter.
Someway. Please let me get pregnant for myself.
Well here comes the tears again..
I will do my best to update more later.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-2352214271914174702012-07-17T23:25:00.000-07:002012-07-17T23:25:18.734-07:00My missionIn this life I feel like there is many purposes for each of us,
And I feel so strongly like this my purpose
Two years ago I placed my baby,
I feel like now it's my job to help unite adoptive couples to birthmothers.
This is what im going to dedicate my life too,
I start school this august.
I love adoption, and six years from now I will have my degree.
I will persue caseworking.
I'm so excited to start doing the thing I love most.
I'm so passionate about adoption.
I'm excited!!Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-68055049618262398452012-07-10T17:59:00.001-07:002012-07-10T17:59:10.389-07:00:))))Dear Avery,
I have a lot in my heart right now, a lot i need to say,
I still miss you everyday, your still always in my heart,
And for the first time in a long time, I'm really scared.
Life is coming at me so fast. It all seems to be a large blur.
I closed another book my darling.
I did it, I survived high school. I faced my challenges. and now a new set is upcoming
I feel so lost, and yet so excited.
I guess I just want you to know at this moment.
I placed you two years ago,
It still breaks my heart. And you are growing up so fast!
But from the placement, You wern't the only one who was able to grow.
I'm doing good my princess,
I graduated,
I'm going to college soon,
I have an amazing decent paying job,
And im preparing to become a wife.
Thank you Avery.
You are such a mircle. I can't say how many times you have saved me.
Just thinking of you makes me smile.
I love you so much,
wish me luck on the next chapeter of my life. I will move forward with you always in my heart.
love,
mama CCelestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-77997239444871362762012-04-13T21:29:00.000-07:002012-04-13T21:29:19.620-07:00:)I know I'm a blog slacker :( sorry don't really have much time to do anything. <br />
Wow, don't really even know what to type because there has been so much going on. <br />
well i guess I'll start with the biggest thing. <br />
I'm engaged,<br />
now before you judge I know what your thinking. <br />
Eighteen? isn't she to young. <br />
I don't think age defines love at all. <br />
He is my best friend. <br />
I have been dating him for the past two years, best friends for longer, <br />
He knows me inside and out, up and down, there isn't anyone I can even begin to see spending the rest of my life with. He has held my hand through the most hardest part of my life, And was the birthfather to Avery when she didn't have one. <br />
GARRETT is amazing, :) I'm so honored that he chose me to share his life with. I'm very excited and ecstatic to be his wife. <br />
It's a long engagement, <br />
We are getting married next July, Not this July lol.. next July <br />
I'm happy with my man :)<br />
yay so that's the biggest thing right now! and my little girl will be TWO!! in like two months! oh my goodness! i can't believe how big that princess is. :D I miss her, and hope to see her soon.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-1538998588865794692011-11-22T16:00:00.000-08:002011-11-22T16:00:49.641-08:00Life right now is crazy, <br />
I can't believe I'm even having the time right now to write. I don't even have time to breathe anymore. I'm struggling with graduating....<br />
I can't even express how alone I feel right now. I could scream in a room and nobody would even care to look up at me... <br />
I'm depressed.... <br />
Well it's a long story. <br />
I'm not living at home right now, I'm living with a friend. And as the holidays apporach it seems like I can't do anythng but cry. I feel lonley,<br />
YES I do have my Garrett. <br />
But I miss my family, and i wish situations would be better, But most of all I miss Avery, <br />
there is so much sorrow filled in my heart right now. Everything feels so unreal. :"(<br />
It's been almost six months since I've seen my lovely birthbaby. And I'm hurting. She is getting so big, and I'm missing so much. <br />
I'm Eighteen in a few weeks, Funny I don't really like it almost is,<br />
Right now I'm just trying to find myself... Discover Celeste again... <br />
The girl who got good grades and was going somewhere in life..<br />
right now I'll hold on to the faith I have <br />
Happy Turkey Day <br />
-CelesteCelestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-7021107493888645102011-05-29T19:59:00.001-07:002011-05-29T19:59:57.110-07:00YAY!Sorry my blog was disabled but i was able to finally restore it! so ill write more :)Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-60549118149139995692011-03-24T22:01:00.000-07:002011-03-24T22:01:25.303-07:00Season of change.So the snow is fading, and the darkness is passing, <br />
the grass is greening, the birds are begining to take flight again. And the winter is almost dead, bringing color and life into the world again. <br />
but why does my heart stay in the dark? why is it still lost in the blizzard of snow? why are my tears still frozen and falling.....?<br />
alot has been going on my life, and nothing or nowhere to go is forward. I try to stay strong, and i do the best i can. but sometimes it's just not enough. sometimes I feel like my wound will forever be open.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-39902646355789341752011-03-05T19:42:00.000-08:002011-03-05T19:42:15.901-08:00im alive really iam.. :)So i'm a complete blog slacker, i mean i keep starting posts but i never really finish it. :/<br />
so what has been going on? im fianlly pulling myslef out of depression, i still cry on and off but im geting there. It's almost the end of the third term. so its been crazy with homework,<br />
ill post more when i can! :)Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-30421502882106205002011-01-30T21:15:00.000-08:002011-01-30T21:15:34.873-08:00Hello Depression...So life has been crazy, it has not been at all easy for me. I have been so stressed. and so much is going on right now. Almost every day i end up in the office crying. Its just a hudge mixture of things. Like stress of school. Family stuff. My broken heart has been weighing me down alot lately. And with all the stress at home I hold it all inside, and now i just talk to this blog. My boyfriend is a great person for support, but im so tired of overwhelimg everybody I love my emotions. It's just a hard month, and i hope ill get out of this soon.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-6223825142577402052011-01-28T21:22:00.000-08:002011-01-28T21:22:12.508-08:00The darkness of winter<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3Mxzgr_S77Y63N5lgeP0d4nEILlZ5BXNI3c0xx0InS0PM582GqXr2IWReaT7c7Scs8JKyXILrX9Aw2gpa3w5Pfguj6h0WdQMaSH_2fmoxQgvVpt98CRhD4NXia9z_ky4SefpDieo4b8pe/s1600/%2521%2521%2521SDsds.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="320" width="300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3Mxzgr_S77Y63N5lgeP0d4nEILlZ5BXNI3c0xx0InS0PM582GqXr2IWReaT7c7Scs8JKyXILrX9Aw2gpa3w5Pfguj6h0WdQMaSH_2fmoxQgvVpt98CRhD4NXia9z_ky4SefpDieo4b8pe/s320/%2521%2521%2521SDsds.jpg" /></a></div><br />
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The snow is falling, and each snow fall reminds me of all my frozen tears. the ones I hide behind me. The ones I cry alone in the darkness of the brisk cold air. My life is changing, but every day I move forward with pieces of my shatterd heart. Every movement slowly creeping behind me, The silent echo of the past shadows behind my soild mask of pretend happiness. <br />
So dark, and so cold, I continue through the snowstorm of insanity. Each step as a cry for help. But nobody hears me over the loud wind overiding my call for the hands of the earth to left me up. I fear forever I shall be lost in the depth of my sorrow, Always lost in the darkness of winter.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-11809707502589096682011-01-12T17:50:00.000-08:002011-01-12T18:15:11.311-08:00My blessing letter for Avery<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiaNlRNsPiAFGJMED2kg9X3InQ4AFB3x2iDIeF9IIll7OK4LGcn7sSRTjzqbkO2YAY3Rq4SrU__A2f_XRwoXsIukftMDenAz8KK3HbHwXt8ni6MY5pS2sxNxA5-EWglP4CthDqlMEMR_-2J/s1600/%2521%2521%2521%2521AVEY%2521%2521%2521.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiaNlRNsPiAFGJMED2kg9X3InQ4AFB3x2iDIeF9IIll7OK4LGcn7sSRTjzqbkO2YAY3Rq4SrU__A2f_XRwoXsIukftMDenAz8KK3HbHwXt8ni6MY5pS2sxNxA5-EWglP4CthDqlMEMR_-2J/s320/%2521%2521%2521%2521AVEY%2521%2521%2521.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561487400416647426" /></a><br />Dear Avery, <br />Seven months ago I held you in my arms for the first time, I couldn't help but think there was nothing more beautiful then the tiny angel sleeping in my arms. That nothing could compare to the moment you took your first breath. I didnt think anything could be better. But i was wrong it keeps geting more wonderful, with every breath you take im in awe at the lovely girl you are becoming and will become. Wacthing you blossom is the most greatest treasure to me. Seeing your new teeth. Glanceing at your smile. Avery, you are one of gods greastet gifts. I want you to know as you are sealed to your parents he has a plan for you. I love you so much, and it was one of the most amazing things to see you become apart of an eternal family. Everyday I wake up full of the surprises you bring. Your parents are so great for allowing me in your life. And there isnt a day I dont fall down to my knees thanking god for the light you have provided in my life. <br />Aviendha. I want you to know, I'll always be here.you will forever have a part of my heart. As you continue to grow, I'll be in the backround smiling. Looking after the tiny angel I have loved for so long. I brought you into this life, And now your parents are bringing you into eternity. Your a special gift. A blessing from only the best angels. <br />I continue to cry as I write this. because even though the days pass, I look back at the baby in my arms.Remembering how hard it was to give you up. And how hard it still is sometimes. But I wouldn't trade your happiness for anything. <br />Happy blessing day Aviendha. I'm so happy for this. <br /><br /> Love always your birthmother. <br /> Celeste.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-57688459211453188202011-01-12T17:49:00.000-08:002011-01-12T17:50:03.562-08:00the pictures didnt post in the order i wanted them to.. but at least they are on thereCelestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-15166911411653447432011-01-12T17:22:00.001-08:002011-01-12T17:48:26.953-08:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDTVJf6Pym8BFM_tnby7s-qajcTgmS6zPMyAPMRxJ67G51aIiTe04u1q343XLztri-g5-U8M8X1yBKs_sEgYRNVFSVWY8SDo5m1UBdANJSGa9IbYWO4gWWbHJ6MpDXIC4rKnRNx1BslYoW/s1600/%2521%2521%2521%2521blessing.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 302px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDTVJf6Pym8BFM_tnby7s-qajcTgmS6zPMyAPMRxJ67G51aIiTe04u1q343XLztri-g5-U8M8X1yBKs_sEgYRNVFSVWY8SDo5m1UBdANJSGa9IbYWO4gWWbHJ6MpDXIC4rKnRNx1BslYoW/s320/%2521%2521%2521%2521blessing.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561480974021024930" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUywtiDktOJBPdYQreAbeny6bEAmA9nZ1Y7lD-Jvfp-SHiTUgEmxXzehhJz_3soBh5CofEPy-SigfTRoUa8GlHl0TCYBC0m7XvrPn7-ezNJxEjfnLTBWUtodoYdIDX2C8oWapMztgb1Rvv/s1600/%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521blessing.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 257px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUywtiDktOJBPdYQreAbeny6bEAmA9nZ1Y7lD-Jvfp-SHiTUgEmxXzehhJz_3soBh5CofEPy-SigfTRoUa8GlHl0TCYBC0m7XvrPn7-ezNJxEjfnLTBWUtodoYdIDX2C8oWapMztgb1Rvv/s320/%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521blessing.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561480967924784290" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaqqtq0AsaI76PMgx-p1YXJPhMA6ExdBnzKbzAXIZX4kf-6Zw3YZlr0wgseK0dZFCaxy94Vy7gPkhSr3-RhZ6QXnFX4HFQ_1fl0hFo3-oVWxqvoIvymCvN-I_DLdIEk2iubV7xUC8PoRZF/s1600/%2521%2521%2521%2521blessinggggg.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaqqtq0AsaI76PMgx-p1YXJPhMA6ExdBnzKbzAXIZX4kf-6Zw3YZlr0wgseK0dZFCaxy94Vy7gPkhSr3-RhZ6QXnFX4HFQ_1fl0hFo3-oVWxqvoIvymCvN-I_DLdIEk2iubV7xUC8PoRZF/s320/%2521%2521%2521%2521blessinggggg.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561480961902683586" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIXMQR_ka-F7NOYNvuPjbeSo_03WUO3VG4Q6A3iJQO6YE0AIswwA1g1Een7lv1BWp_H59GJJAFCqUhyphenhyphenZ3Wat03QCpvNoN9IYWBGFWpTMiFC48OG1Qkrolhnmo34onCEsSno5ZZt80et3iN/s1600/%2521%2521%2521AVERY%2521%2521%2521.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIXMQR_ka-F7NOYNvuPjbeSo_03WUO3VG4Q6A3iJQO6YE0AIswwA1g1Een7lv1BWp_H59GJJAFCqUhyphenhyphenZ3Wat03QCpvNoN9IYWBGFWpTMiFC48OG1Qkrolhnmo34onCEsSno5ZZt80et3iN/s320/%2521%2521%2521AVERY%2521%2521%2521.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561480958721502482" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhh_IHVqwEKG3q8dW_SmekInR3o6Xt-KXVQXi_-oSHm58bgkvJaoHyZh_pq9ZdtKZhHdVikpvWSuicrUxpAuZIIZgDMB5aNIvjGfWsqCUSZDcQSGWMegVBXBwLf_Nt0K71LRALawqVzPCB6/s1600/%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521blessing.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 287px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhh_IHVqwEKG3q8dW_SmekInR3o6Xt-KXVQXi_-oSHm58bgkvJaoHyZh_pq9ZdtKZhHdVikpvWSuicrUxpAuZIIZgDMB5aNIvjGfWsqCUSZDcQSGWMegVBXBwLf_Nt0K71LRALawqVzPCB6/s320/%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521%2521blessing.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561480953725402226" /></a><br />Wow it's been forever since I have posted something. <br />Alot has been going on with school and such, i just really havent had the time. <br />I attened Avery's blessing last weekend. It was very emotional, but not in a sad way, but beacause they are such a beautiful family. The drive up to colorado was long, and i was really nerovus. but even more nervous when I got to my adoptive couples house. The birthfather was going to be there. and I was scared, for nine months he didn't play a part in avery's life. and i didnt understand why he wanted to now. But it wasnet so bad. I was able to put the pain beside me and talk to him like i would anyother friend. <br />My boyfriend also came along, and that was great. I loved having him with me. And him and my adoptive couple got along great. And he absoulty loved Avery. <br />I hold the beautful lil family so dear to my heart and im so glad I found them for Avery, They are everything a birthmother could wish for their child. And now they are together for all eternity. I was very happy to be down there to witness all of it. It was such a bittersweet weekend. But i wouldnt trade those memories for anything.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-32716815616855132042010-11-24T17:00:00.000-08:002010-11-24T17:01:04.541-08:00I'm so excited, My mom just bought my ticket to colorado next weekend. <br />This means, I get to see my angel :) I've missed that tiny soul so much!! <br />I can't wait to see how big she is, (even though i want her to stay little forever)<br />I love that girl, and i miss her. I saw a little girl the other day at the mall. she was picking out christmas ordaments with her mom and dad. I rememberd when I did that when I was little. I couldn't help but shed a few tears. And cried on Garrett's shoulder who knows how many times I've done that now. I still have my moments of loss when I cry for her. But now it's almost a happy memory. I look back and smile. Avery changed me for the better. And her memory is one of my most happyist. <br />I can't also wait to see Avery's parents, They have such a big part of my heart. There amazing wonderful people! I picked a great couple for my girl. I miss them also. <br />I'm very glad next weekend I'll get to see them. <br />Wow, I can't believe how fast time is flying! I'm the birthmom of an almost six month year old. I've also been in a relationship with my Garrett for about six months. My jr year is half way over also... wow. I must say though, I love were my life is going! <br />I'm so happy, And im so very excited!!<br />I LOVE YOU sweet AVERY!!!!! I can't wait to hold youCelestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-72227308452328118192010-11-02T20:36:00.000-07:002010-11-02T20:40:05.564-07:00Well, I think it's safe to say I'm officaly slaking on my blog. <br />I'm going to do my best to keep up with this. It's just hard to decide what to talk about. I've considerd just making a blog about me. And having two blogs. But i'm not sure. <br /> October was hard, Because of so many memories that came back to me. I hit a downward spirl. But i'm okay now. <br /> Well, sorry for the short post. But i'm still alive and will try to blog more!Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-46719275848491105492010-09-20T20:10:00.000-07:002010-09-20T20:32:09.335-07:00Homecoming :)<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlPPjQYiaV8bkaUW0wpn1nRjknYMWGAZ_SOM-k08oKu5PUtLI_nVpiOfg0jDCOP3YBccjPjsd4_t3Cgs27p_SIaj2YD_bMfZOcXiGwvAUdxu9IV2TOJWkB9xjBj1ozK2ejviS9Xyqlf5Wn/s1600/!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 210px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlPPjQYiaV8bkaUW0wpn1nRjknYMWGAZ_SOM-k08oKu5PUtLI_nVpiOfg0jDCOP3YBccjPjsd4_t3Cgs27p_SIaj2YD_bMfZOcXiGwvAUdxu9IV2TOJWkB9xjBj1ozK2ejviS9Xyqlf5Wn/s320/!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5519204391063525442" /></a><br />So Last weekend was Granger's homecoming. <br />Granger sadly lost the homecoming game (doesn't really surprise me, the football team kinda sucks lol)<br />It was really fun. Homecoming day was really busy. I didn't sleep at all that night really. I was way to excited. I woke up at like 7:30 am (yeah sleeping in to pass time totally worked out...:P) I showered hoping to pass time. (didn't work etheir) <br />I started doing my hair Way to early and was ready to go two hours early. Haha. So I was on the computer for like ever waiting to go. Finally it was time to go. I answerd the door and my nerd was there(he looked very nice I might add) <br />His sister took us to the park to take pictures. Trying to get garrett to take a serious picture is like trying to teach a dog to speak english. LOL. He kept messing around, how we manged to get some good ones I dunno...but we did. <br />We had dinner at the craker barrell. It was way yummy. Even though I got what Avery always made me crave Chicken nuggets and french fries w/ranch. That's all I wanted when I was preg. And I guess that is still my thing. <br />The dance it's slef was amazing. Alot of my friends were there. I danced with a few. <br />What I really enjoyed though was the part of the dance when Garrett and I took a break from dancing, And I just talked to him. I love talking to Garrett. He's the best friend a girl could have. <br />I also loved how on the wall there was a bunch of stars of everybody at the dance. I of course took mine. It's hanging on my wall now. <br />It was awesome. I can't wait for the next dance. XDCelestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-47802446518188361102010-09-20T19:59:00.004-07:002010-09-20T20:09:58.422-07:00A year Ago...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNnztFSpbjMhidq4D-yK7TqEKqNRX0myFWQW_KqcN29V93JrwL0kX04QHcaylLg-2-y6iJqr4UkutquLQ411ur7BTlpwWh1nzD5gJWUlxqSR4VLdeOvvk6qYinbhVKwl2cveDWPYL1zWSS/s1600/013.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 160px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNnztFSpbjMhidq4D-yK7TqEKqNRX0myFWQW_KqcN29V93JrwL0kX04QHcaylLg-2-y6iJqr4UkutquLQ411ur7BTlpwWh1nzD5gJWUlxqSR4VLdeOvvk6qYinbhVKwl2cveDWPYL1zWSS/s320/013.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5519198666460981426" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br />It's werid to think a year ago yesterday I was oblivous to the fact that I had concived the most beautiful baby. A year ago I was so naive and lost. I just lived life. A year ago yesterday Avery Didn't have a beating heart yet, She was just a egg. It's crazy. I was pregnant, this time last year. And I didn't find out until october. It's sometimes hard to believe I ever was pregnant. Sometimes it sheems so surrel.<br />I can't believe how far I've come since then. I know who I am now. I know where I'm going. And I can only thank my beautiful birthdaughter for that. I miss her everyday. But now that pain is numb. I've learned to live with a broken heart. And it's okay...Because I'm strong. I know the choice I made for her was the right one.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-31709812235544764952010-09-20T19:59:00.003-07:002010-09-20T19:59:39.926-07:00Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-42849929976015073572010-09-20T19:59:00.001-07:002010-09-20T19:59:39.371-07:00Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-63497354826504645122010-09-13T17:44:00.000-07:002010-09-13T20:47:33.113-07:00Life these days<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvzVkdRB6gIXKwsy2MTXQmuR_CTdViMip9AgTS-rOEWk8MSxtSTKgrSviBrjy1WRNgmBe_wxWsN8EzD5KRnDsCUko6Oeqoxr8NWGLtUQkWKt9euEC-jG-Vi74ZCd1i2WOSJ9vyAfpMG-rb/s1600/!!!!SSSDGFDSFDS.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvzVkdRB6gIXKwsy2MTXQmuR_CTdViMip9AgTS-rOEWk8MSxtSTKgrSviBrjy1WRNgmBe_wxWsN8EzD5KRnDsCUko6Oeqoxr8NWGLtUQkWKt9euEC-jG-Vi74ZCd1i2WOSJ9vyAfpMG-rb/s320/!!!!SSSDGFDSFDS.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5516610740084013554" /></a><br /> <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> Wow, where do I start? Have I have ever said how weird and kinda scary how fast time flys? Midterms, are this week.. wow..But I'm doing great in school! my lowest grade is a b+(in math of course). Homecoming is this week I'm really excited. My boyfriend is awesome. It was so cute today in class, I always say my heart is broken. And I was drawing a heart, and Garrett drew one and gave It to me. It was a mended heart, and it had a band aid on it. I had to say it made me really happy. I'm glad I have my best friend,(boyfriend) by my side fighting this heartache with me. We have been together three months on thrusday.<br /> I have so much homework all the time it's insane. But I'm glad im going the places I want to go. I actually by the end of the year have enough credits to graduate. But I'm going to do my sr year for the experiance. When I'm done with high school I know for a fact I'm going to major in social work. I've been seeing a career person to help me on my journey through college. <br />Everyday is a new journey, Everyday is a new trial. But I know having faith will get me through. <br />I love my family, I love my friends. <br />This is life. And this is me :)Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-88233947388921792012010-09-06T22:35:00.000-07:002010-09-06T22:37:12.632-07:00HEY!!Yep I'm still alive, Sorry I haven't written for awhile,<br />School has started, and i've been really really busy. <br />But I'll do my best to blog more often... <br />:)Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-73367254048502454032010-08-05T23:16:00.000-07:002010-08-05T23:21:32.783-07:00Mini me :)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhF1_or7684xS55e4E1aBOSpJSUKGtSscTgkYqlT5c2WD7DpfRbX8-cQcMU-fGK4fiwFpHf0xMZprR5TJ-b4Nm71CkUXbmdFFSWcryMgFUaarmY54Y0kb7mL_vi98fSq2Khd9NrS-mrkjU/s1600/39085_469312422288_768757288_6396255_7931001_n.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 234px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhF1_or7684xS55e4E1aBOSpJSUKGtSscTgkYqlT5c2WD7DpfRbX8-cQcMU-fGK4fiwFpHf0xMZprR5TJ-b4Nm71CkUXbmdFFSWcryMgFUaarmY54Y0kb7mL_vi98fSq2Khd9NrS-mrkjU/s320/39085_469312422288_768757288_6396255_7931001_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5502177102141070642" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0fkrXIY7ezIltgH9dM2ND0aBGfhTwcYo32NBhLL9QvHDPQloJDN55reoOF5HCouiH-hJZCaSJbaAed_PxKbkrEAaEIarrJ4QMyQXrYJzhbtjMFB602MsRAcHmB-wjQVyBODCKWsJDZXVr/s1600/2a.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0fkrXIY7ezIltgH9dM2ND0aBGfhTwcYo32NBhLL9QvHDPQloJDN55reoOF5HCouiH-hJZCaSJbaAed_PxKbkrEAaEIarrJ4QMyQXrYJzhbtjMFB602MsRAcHmB-wjQVyBODCKWsJDZXVr/s320/2a.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5502177100174406978" /></a><br /><br /><br />Yess If she wasent my birthdaughter id think we were twins :)<br />She is so beautiful, She looks so much like me... <br />Wow, shes geting so big! <br />So angelic. <br />Her parents are doing a wonderful job. <br /> The top pic is my sweet avery, and the bottom is me as a baby.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-74071613533258398882010-08-05T22:49:00.000-07:002010-08-05T23:14:20.096-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglTz3pvgIhbFymcqSjXMsAtpcPsOYPgyQf91YMlxyHnXXJee7fYu-KB5Q3wQc0oZkTvD0zIj5k-160BlpQG7iilSMoKajvQBsgh69ZVmy_OUKwSg2GcqAl9pLRmtpx0io_GA_0HdMSN4Nl/s1600/l_eec4cdd65da04df982a40c4b8e230eee.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 276px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglTz3pvgIhbFymcqSjXMsAtpcPsOYPgyQf91YMlxyHnXXJee7fYu-KB5Q3wQc0oZkTvD0zIj5k-160BlpQG7iilSMoKajvQBsgh69ZVmy_OUKwSg2GcqAl9pLRmtpx0io_GA_0HdMSN4Nl/s320/l_eec4cdd65da04df982a40c4b8e230eee.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5502173690293037746" /></a><br /><br /><br />School is about to start, and lately I've thinking. I'm very excited... <br />But how am I going to do this? I mean honestly for about a year I've been shut off from the world, And teenagers don't understand me, They really do irritate me, They have no idea what life can be. So how was I going to go back? How do I live? I asked myself many times these past two months. <br />Life is beautiful and amazingly bittersweet. Theres moments i'd go through every minute of pain for. I'm not really worried about these things anymore, I know where I want to be in life. And I'm only a kid for one more year..I'm going to enjoy this. <br />I'm loving the women I'm becoming. Inside my heart I'm strong and beautiful. Iam a daughter of my heavenly father. <br />i love the people around me dearly. <br />So how am i going to walk back into life? <br />A little at a time, I already have a great boyfriend. And Im starting to hang with friends again. <br />Wherever life takes me I'm excited. The rode won't be easy but it will be worth it in the end. <br />I'm so excited for jr year! GO LANCERS!!! :)Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7351822522839978159.post-4148077579232748662010-07-27T21:22:00.000-07:002010-07-27T21:37:07.543-07:00My Gaurdian Angel :)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAgqTa5UGdA0oh32oXGkMXLWLw0x4NY3F2l0SwuSluosuQZhTZX6ORxVExeUjPi7HQvDHKTh8MBJKdpqV_KaZmxHKSlHH67ybvWe2JDCoD2UjSrTI1uDOQ-vgMm6mEoj48OFOoDIAeA_ZK/s1600/l_dc81e03426af45c69467983d9ac1cbb9.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 168px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAgqTa5UGdA0oh32oXGkMXLWLw0x4NY3F2l0SwuSluosuQZhTZX6ORxVExeUjPi7HQvDHKTh8MBJKdpqV_KaZmxHKSlHH67ybvWe2JDCoD2UjSrTI1uDOQ-vgMm6mEoj48OFOoDIAeA_ZK/s320/l_dc81e03426af45c69467983d9ac1cbb9.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5498810977597710130" /></a><br /><br />Theres times when were alone, When we feel like were going to die. <br />When we feel like we can't move on, When all you can do is hope. <br />God sends us an angel. <br />Garrett stod by my side through my entire pregnancy, When everybody left he was the last one standing. When I cried, He was there. He became my best friend. At the time I didnt think much of it. But im so grateful to him. And I love him so much. He was the one I talked to, Hes done so many sweet amazing things for me.<br />We have been together a month now, And even If we don't make it, I'll always be grateful to the angel that got me through the toughest time of my life. And even now I struggle hes always there. <br />I love my best friend.. :) <br />I'm so honored to have him in my life.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12579324234020899620noreply@blogger.com0